awake and alive

How about something cheery…

I bought my dog a harness and a toy sled today. I took him to the park while he pulled the sled with a cinder block on it. Good times…

I had to break into my house on New Year’s Eve. Kristie and I went to get a movie and she didn’t bring her keys. We got back and realized that since I gave my house key to my parents while we were at ignite, it was still inside on the coffee table. Luckily I’ve gained plenty of weight since we got married which allowed me to bash my back door in. It did some decent damage to the frame, nothing I couldn’t fix without too much work. Unfortunately it broke the screws out of the door itself, rendering the door handle permanently unusable. (I’ll post some pictures of the damage later)

Classes start again on Monday. This semester should be a piece of cake compared to last semester.

So I’m going to try and do things differently this semester (like actually get all 4.0′s). I’m going to try and spend more time with my smokin’ hot, undeniably beautiful, wife. I’m going to attempt to spend more time with friends (maybe some more food/hangout nights at the Price’s). I’m sure there’s more that I’m not thinking of right now, but we’ll see…

It has been over a month since my last post, and even that post wasn’t very good.

I’m officially half-way into my break between semesters. This next semester won’t be quite so difficult compared to the last one. I have 3 academic classes as opposed to the 5 I had before.

I feel like I’m starting to become myself again. Even though that means some procrastination, waking up late, and doing one thing when I should be doing another.

Kristie and I are leaving early for Ignite since we are helping with it. I sure hope that I can actually do something. It seems like they might not really need my help.

Anyway, I procrastinated packing some of my stuff, so I have to go so we’re not late.

I can’t believe that it has been almost 3 weeks since I last posted.  I also can’t believe that after I get home from NC, I only have 2 weeks left of regular classes.

This semester has been so crazy.  I can’t wait until it is over.   I also hope that the next semester isn’t like this one.  I usually have so much that I’m thinking about and plenty feelings about life and relationships, but work and school have dominated my thoughts since the beginning of the semester.  I don’t really like it at all.

So Saturday night after church I went to Nato‘s pad.  We watched “The Office” for a while so I could catch up to the current season.  Before he took me back home he made me a DVD of the rest of season 3.  (Side note: I’ve always known it, but Nato is a great guy.  If you don’t know him well, you should.)  Yesterday I spent several hours watching episode after episode, whilst avoiding doing the homework that was looming over my head (procrastination, I will kill you!)

Also, my wife is smoking hot.  I realize this fact more everyday.  (She is more than just smoking hot, but I don’t have any more time left before class to talk about the rest)

Well, my life has been quite busy lately.  I’m sure most everyone knows since I don’t really see anyone anymore.  I guess part of that is my fault since I don’t really hang out after church on Saturday night anymore.  I am just so much more tire lately since my sleep schedule is crazy and I’m waking up early most of the week.

On another note, I get to buy a new furnace for my house.  Not really the way that I was hoping to spend $1,700 of our emergency savings, but I suppose it will add value to our house and maybe save us some money on heating bills.  Then again, it’s not quite as expensive as the $2,000 dental work (aka root canal plus x-rays) that I will begin this Wednesday.  I’m really not looking forward to that pain.  I guess it makes me thankful that we had the emergency savings in the first place.

The good news though is that so far I am doing well in school.  I think that I am still in a really good position to get 4.0 in all of my classes.  I sure wish that I had completed school earlier when I didn’t have so many other responsibilities.

I didn’t leave MSU till 10pm last night, even though I arrived at 12:30. I got here before 10 today. This week is school/homework-tastic.  I’m not complaining; I’m glad that I understand what is going on in my classes and that I’m getting my homework done.

FDR said that “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself”.

There aren’t really any people that I’m afraid of (maybe Brett when he gets angry), and for the most part I’m not really afraid of many things. Lately though, I’ve begun to really fear failure. I’m afraid that I’m not going to do well enough in my classes. I’m afraid that I’m going to forget something for my job or for school.  I’m afraid that I might come short for a client and cause them to lose time or money. I’m afraid that I might not get something done on time for my job. I’m afraid that I’m going to manage my money incorrectly and end up in debt; unable to pay my bills. I’m afraid that I’ll never be completely victorious in the struggle against porn.

Are these fears legitimate? I can see the consequences of failing at any of these things, and I don’t think that I have any reason to believe that I will absolutely be successful in these areas; it is unknown. Chances are high that I will succeed in most of these, but I greatly fear that chance that I will not; and there is a chance.

I was waiting for the bus back to the commuter lot today when I witnessed something fabulous.  A girl, who also happened to be waiting for the bus, beeped a “friend” using Nextel two-way on speakerphone.  I happen to think that two-way on speakerphone is not only rude, but just plain dumb.  This girl furthered my beliefs and thoroughly proved the dumb factor.

Here is snippets of the conversation (at least from what I can remember):

girl: hey, what cha doin?
guy: thinking about your hot ass rack.
girl: thanks, everyone around me heard that.

So, then she continued for another minute on speakerphone and then switched to regular phone.  Interestingly enough she decided to go back to speakerphone near the end of the conversation, where they talked about nothing for a minute and then the guy said something like “we’re gonna have sex soon” or “I can’t wait to have sex with you tonight”.

The only thing that would have made this better (or more deserving of a Darwin award) would have been if she had tried to cross the road at the end of the conversation and was hit by the bus.

The answer is not. The question is referring to the classroom where my statistics class meets. Last week they had the ceiling fans on medium, and not all of them worked. Let me just say that I came out of the class very sweaty.

This week on the other hand, the ceiling fans are on high and then they have a few huge free-standing fans blowing like crazy in the doorways. It feels great.

The answer is also yes. It may seem strange at first, but I can’t wait till it starts to cool down outside. The reason for this is that a large majority of MSU girls like to wear clothes that make it difficult to keep my eyes open whilst sauntering about the campus. I’m gonna be honest, it’s hard as hell to keep up mental purity.

Finally, the answer is thirdly yes.  My blog design is NOT hot, and I’m getting tired of it.  Too bad I’m so busy that I don’t have time to create a new design.  Oh well…

What is the significance of 4.0? Well, it is significant in two ways: the first is an easy one. I ran 4.0 miles yesterday, and I thought I was gonna pass out near the end. I stuck it out though, and it was semi-rewarding.

The other significance is what is dominating my life right now: school. My aim for this semester is a 4.0. So, I have to bust my bum to get there, and it is taking so much time that I have to say ‘no’ to a lot of things, which sucks.

I will update as much as I can, but it’s hard to say how often that will be…